I'll Stay Me

As I start these first steps on my new journey I am starting to find my all too human brain allowing the fears in. Not about my calling. Of that I'm certain. Of what other people will think when they hear. I know, I know, those who matter most will think it's awesome. And they do. But I can't help but wonder if some people on the periphery of my life will look at me different. Will make assumptions about me when they hear words like "ministry"or "divinity school. " I'm even embarrassed to admit TO the occasional stray thought, "who will want to date a woman who may be a pastor some day?" I'm not proud of any of this, but if I'm going to share all of this with you then I have to show all sides of what I'm going through. (And I have answered my last question with "the right man will" in case you were wondering) So let me assure you and me that most of me will be the same. I'll still list Supernatural as my favorite show on TV right now. I will still list country music as my favorite. I will still have a weakness for rom-coms and superhero movies. Nora Roberts will still be one of my favorite authors. I will often enjoy a glass or two of wine at the end of the day and cheer on the Buffalo Bills every Sunday. I will still believe that every person is important and deserving of God's love no matter their gender, race, sexuality, or beliefs. I know that on some level, however, I will change. Going through something like this how can I not? But I hope it will strengthen what's good in me and help me deal better with what's not. And who knows, maybe you all will change a little bit too. :)